I’ve been doing my best with the project lately, considering the fact that I’m working 10 hour days at Epcot and I’m taking 12 credit hours.  Yet it has still been slow progress.  And even better, I have personal stresses distracting me from everything, as usual.  One of my bigger distractions lately has been my career choice.

In senior year of high school, I finished all of my college applications before fall semester ended.  I accepted my college of choice rather quickly, because I knew it was the right school for me, plus the financial aspects were pretty nice (I wouldn’t be graduating with as much debt as I would be with my other potential schools).  I was sure that, even with not knowing what I wanted to major in, I would find something that would be the right fit for me.

Right before high school graduation, I received a card from the Culinary Institute of America.  I had never heard of them before.  And it sounded like something up my alley, getting into a food career.  In my last two years of high school I definitely felt a calling to some kind of food career.  But how on earth was I supposed to know what’s the right path for me?

It was too late to tell if I should have considered the CIA.  I had already paid my fees to my current university and they were non-refundable.  Besides, cooking school?  Was that really what I wanted?

I went off to college and discovered I could design my own degree, even something like food journalism.  It seemed fitting- writing is one of my better skills, and I loved to eat.  Maybe I could become a food critic.  And I had missed the thrill of journalism; after all, Linda Ellerbee was one of my idols growing up.

But every couple of months I’d have the same passing doubts.  Should I have considered cooking school?  After all, my university doesn’t offer any actual cooking courses, except for students in the health/nutrition majors.  I couldn’t take any of them, nor did I really have interest in learning every food biology detail (science has never been my strong suit).

Here I am, in my senior year of college, trying to complete this senior project and still wondering if I made the right choice.  I really don’t know how to feel about my academia coming to an end for a while…

Today I watched Cupcake Wars with my roommate and bonded over different cupcake flavors.  I could make so many different things!!!  Everyone loves cupcakes!!!  If I opened my own cupcake shop, I could cater to college students and do late night cupcake deliveries!!!

I guess I’m just calling out into the emptiness of the Internet, wondering if I made the right choice.  Or if I’m on the path to happiness at all.

Ah well.  IF I had a cupcake shop, here are some flavor ideas I would have!

The PMS Cupcake- Chocolate cake, chocolate fudge frosting, chocolate sprinkles, and chocolate chips, and cherry or strawberry filling for irony.

The “I Need A Vacation Right Now” Cupcake- Pineapple cake, rum-infused vanilla buttercream frosting, toasted coconut and a cherry on top.

The Lily’s Birthday Cupcake- Vanilla cake, my mom’s strawberry-buttercream frosting, with frosting in the middle.

The James Cupcake- Chocolate cake, peanut butter frosting, crumbled Butterfinger pieces on top, a Reese’s Mini Peanut Butter Cup baked into the middle.

The Sweet’n’Sour Cupcake- Lemon cupcake, raspberry buttercream frosting, white chocolate shavings.

The Girls’ Night Cupcake aka the Caitlin Cupcake- A Nutella-based cake with peanut butter frosting, crumbled Oreos on top.